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So, I have been KINDA off of the Specific Carbohydrate Diet or GAPS diet for a few years.  I had quit shunning all sauces with modified food starch.  If something had a gram of sucrose, that was okay.  Still no GRAINS or MILK, ever.  I miss you, buttered garlic bread!  I dream about you, biscuits and gravy!  Alas, but there were french fries.  Ah, glorious french fries.

But, now I’m back.  While weaning this most recent baby, I “dropped my basket.”  Not significantly.  I just started crying about dumb stuff and yelling at the kids about spray bottles falling behind the washer.  I asked myself, “Why wasn’t I bananas when I weaned my last baby?”  I was on THE DIET.  Crap.  So, I got back on track and now I’m sane.  And starving.  Have you ever looked at it?  I prayed before I read the ingredients on my beloved Duke’s mayo.  Kid you not.

The idea is that if you eat di-saccharides, and you have unhealthy guts, the carbs go to the bacteria.  They bloom.  The make byproducts that wreck your serotonin. You cry and stomp feet when you can find the o-ring for the blender.  Yep.

I take a very high dose of mental health meds.  Many people are all “I could take the meds or care for my body.”  I’m BOTH, AND, PLEASE.  Just the meds?  I’m afloat, but something is still pulling on my feet. Just the diet?  NO WAY.  It’s a struggle.  Meds plus diet plus sunshine plus exercise plus whole house water filters and organic food and nothing fake and bone broth and, and, and…I might not cry at you in the grocery store.  Just kidding.  It’s not that bad.  Meds, diet, sunshine, exercise, and a hot shower.  But right now, ham has enough sugar to make me yell at the kids.  My live is weird.

How’s you?  Got any good recipes for me?  I can’t even remember how to cook this way!